dayin/dayout/nightin/nightout

i do not feel as if i am capable of saying very much about anything right now. words fail me at the moment, so i apologize. i do not wish to say things so simply, because simple words do not do justice when being used to explain how one feels, but if it that's how it seems, then that's how it seems.

as it turns out, simple words have lost their touch and are not enough. i am sorry.

i also must apologize for following the way of most blogs. i am sure you've grown sick of reading about terrible love lifes, great love lifes, love in general. i try not to whine and complain, and i pride myself on the feeling that i generally succeed. but, alas, i am only human, and as independent as i strive to be, i can only take so much and hold it down to mingle with the rest of the whatever comes to me in life until it fades.

eventually, some of it builds up and must be discarded somehow.
so again, i apologize for whatever may come. if you do not wish to read on, i will not blame you.
i won't always be bitching and moaning and complaining and whining and all those unfortunate little things that you may consider it. i can promise this.


but tonight, the moon only provides so much company, and the sunrise is in a rush to leave.




somebody please fill the empty space in this bed beside me that has waited for you.
be awkward and cute with me and be young and in love while we can.
let's be certain, safe and sound about each other, and sing to our own song in tune together.
let's do unextraordinary things and make them extraordinary for each other, and watch as we help each other blossom and bloom.
we can watch terrible movies together and enjoy them because, really, we won't be paying much attention to them anyways, and we can watch great movies together and have exceptional conversations about everything and nothing and all that is in between, and sometimes we don't even have to speak a word and that will be enough for both us.
let's take walks in beautiful places when it's nice out and take walks in beautiful places when it rains.
we can learn about each other and learn to sacrifice and learn that even though we could've been just as happy before we'd met each other, being happy with someone else is preferred.
we can be lazy and stay in bed when we feel like it, reading each other and learning each other and our skin and our bones.
we will echo out something similar to 'everything' to each other.
keep my heart in your pocket and I'll keep yours in mine.
take a chance on me.

again, i apologize. but sometimes, human emotion demands to be heard. so let it be heard.
thanks for letting me be heard.